A short fiction.

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PAGES OF MY HISTORY

It was a cold day in the middle of the winter. I was sitting by the same lake that I had for a year ago by this time. The lake was covered in ice, the trees were covered in snow, and the cabin I had been sharing with my band mates and our girlfriends were still here. This year it was different. My band mates weren’t here, and neither were my girlfriend. God I missed her!

*Flashback*

“Don’t you dare, !” yelled towards her boyfriend. He was holding a pillow straight to her face, and threatened with tossing it if she didn’t come. “What if I do?” smirked. “Pleeease, baby. Let me go this time” pretended to beg. She got down on her knees. laughed and helped her up. “I’ll let you go this time then” he said, giving her a kiss on the lips. “Let’s join the others in the Jacuzzi, yeah?”

*End Of Flashback*

I remembered clearly every word you said that day it was over. You said the love was a puzzle made of pieces you couldn’t find. You said it was your fault. You said you never wanted to hurt me on purpose. But now it was over. I missed her, but I knew I had to go on.

I got up and walked towards the cabin. It looked dark and strange now. I found the key and went in. it was cold, so I put some wood to the fire and it soon got warmer. It got darker and darker outside, and all I could manage to do was to think of her. I couldn’t get her off my mind. Everyone told me that I should carry on, but how am I supposed to do that when she’s always on my mind? I wondered if I had made a mistake, and that that was why she took the decision she did. Now I just felt empty and alone. I got to bed, trying to get some sleep, but it didn’t help, so I went back to the lounge and stared out of the window. It was snowing. Everything that you meant to me is written in the pages of my history. Everywhere I turned these memories of you and I flashed back at me. They didn’t go away. It seemed so easy, but I couldn’t get over you.

*Flashback*

“! ! Come and join us!” ’s voice called. They had finished the Jacuzzi and were not sat in the cosy lounge with blankets and hot chocolate. They were playing card games and everyone laughed and was having the best time. and his girlfriend were cuddling up next to the fire, and and s girlfriends were challenging each other whether or not they had the courage to skinny dipping into the icy cold water and then right after jump straight into the hot sauna. “I’m not sure I have the guts to do that yet” Michelle said. ’s cheeky grin disappeared at once. “Me neither” Harry’s girlfriend agreed. “I’ll do it” whispered in ’s ear. “What?” asked surprised. “I’m not afraid to do it” repeated, taking hold of ’s hand and pulled him outside. Well outside, pulled her clothes off and ran towards the lake totally naked. smiled and pulled his own clothes of, running after her. They both hit the cold water at the same time, one of them screaming louder than the other. They laughed hysterically at each other, until pulled her closer, giving her a kiss and then dragged her up, running through the snow and towards the sauna. When they were inside, pulled her close and kissed her passionately. “You’re crazy, you know that?” he smiled as she rubbed his back to get him to warm up.

*End Of Flashback*

How could I have known how bad it would feel after? Being without her was terrible. But it’s over now as far as I can see. I have only seen her one time after we split. She was walking alone through the park. I don’t think she saw me. She was as beautiful as ever. Her hair was blowing in the wind, and she looked so vulnerable and innocent when she tucked herself in with her jacket. I can’t get over her. I just have to realise it. She will never be mine again.